//mood//nerdy
//song//dead man dyin : locale.am

//completing.it
okay...so...let's see...here's the stereotype so far:

[orange.county | theatre.major]
[~] work at disneyland
[~] study theatre at csufullerton
[~] say that you hate orange county, american idol, and everything trendy
[~] secretly love all of these

there's one more element of stereotype for the aspiring actor: seek employment at a restaurant.

as we speak...i'm awaiting to get a call back from mimi's cafe. that's right...so, if there is any stereotype about being a theatre major in orange county...i've fulfilled it...and i hope i get the job...because i need another source of income while my beloved resort is in off-season. and...if i can get promoted from host to server: tip money. man...i hope i get the job...soon.

//under.the[radar]
maybe every week...i'll post a few bands at mp3.com that have caught my attention. 'cause right now, i think you need to be listening to some of these independent bands.

[~]locale a.m.
i've been listening to their demo cd for awhile...these guys rock. you can hear a definite maturity and growth in their current sound, in comparison to their earlier stuff. chris gave me my first taste of these guys, and they've got a uniquely different thing going on.

[~]asking*autumn
i stumbled onto these guys on the emo chart...and they've got a rockin' sound. if you like the early november, then you should give these guys a listen. they're a featured band this week, and i can definately hear why.

[~]mae
i first heard about these guys from a few of my co-workers talking about them...awesome sound. give em a download. seriously.

//i.had.these+dreams+that.i'd.learn.to[play:guitar]
since my mom isn't using the acoustic guitar, nor the electric guitar+amp, i decided to take both of these, put them in my room, and teach myself how to play. that's right baby...it should open up more options in my songwriting, since piano-punk often gets incorporated with something corporate...and, i am looking for a different kind of sound, similar maybe...but, something distinctly different...a distinctly different sound from anyone (hopefully...since everything is derivative these days). but, yeah...i'm pretty psyched...i love playing the electric guitar, that sh_t roxors.

okay...time to surf the net for tabs.

//mood//not.bad
//song//bingo.bango : basement.jaxx

//the[neo-nerd]
let's face it...nerd is the hottest trend to smack us in the faces...and for once, i'm part of a trend, i've been part of the trend my whole life, and i don't mind it...because it's the anti-trend. from signing up on friendster.com, to daily blogging, to the ever growing popularity of coldplay...the rise of the neo-nerd is taking over.

it isn't enough to just say nerd...but, it's the neo-nerd. the neo-nerd is no longer the loser. neo-nerd isn't the pocket protecter wearing, greasy-haired, pimple skinned dweeb who lives in his own world...the neo-nerd is something else...the neo-nerd is that part of us that thrives off of comic books, video games, and music that means something. the neo-nerd is now sociable and social. dweebs still exist. dweebs are not the neo-nerd. that kid who is going to be on the first episode of the new season of mtv's made is not a neo-nerd...he's just a dweeb.

nerd has taken over fashion through glasses, trucker caps, and guys wearing shirts a couple sizes too small. it has invaded television with the inclusion of fred armisen and tina fey in the casts of saturday night live, lisa simpson's nerdiness was cool before it could be considered mainstream cool, and everyone loves stephen colbert and mo rocca. if you think about it, the very premise of the wb's smallville is very nerdy: superman (a comic book character, nonetheless) in his adolescent years, and let's make him part of the journalism team--and it's a hit. just look at the lead singers of a lot of the bands out right now: andrew mcmahon from something corporate; chris martin from coldplay (who, i might add, is sleeping with gwenyth paltrow); thom yorke from radiohead; or hip-hoppers common (from the coca-cola commercial with mya), pharrell williams (frontman for the group n.e.r.d.), or mos def. my final shred of evidence: vh1 is finally cool...nerd culture is taking over.

go get your boba-filled drinks, listen to your neo-pop and neo-emo-punk, wrap a tie around your neck for no good reason at all, smash the buttons on your ps2 controller, log-on to friendster.com and blog about it...you've got some nerd in you...and you like it.

the neo-nerd is simple and complex at the same time.
the neo-nerd is the new sexy.

for once, i'm temporarily cool.

//[favorite]things--fall.03
[restaurant : hooters]
that's a great american establishment if there ever was one. being nineteen-years-old and very single, i really don't think that there is another place to obtain great hot wings...that's right, there is no other place for the single american male to get hot wings. i've only got three more opportunities to get 20% off of my orders too...since hooters has been around for 20 years, they're taking 20% off the bill every 20th of each month this year...so...gotta do that. i'm single, and it'll be that way for awhile...until proven otherwise, this is my new favorite restaurant.

[television show : the oc]
okay...i'm an oc kid myself...but there's something about teen-dramas mixed with the uber-sleaziness of fox that makes me think oooohh. the fact is, it might be a little cheesy...and my life in orange county, california does not quite parallel that of the characters in the show...but the characters come fairly close. my favorite character, and probably yours too, is seth...funny guy, the underdog...there's some sort of sleazy and cheezy charm to this show that just gets you hooked.

queer eye for the straight guy comes in a very close second.

[show you're not watching : style court]
this show is incredibly genius. it's a guilty pleasure. it's a reason why mig needs to get cable soon. here's the premise: civilians play fashion police and put their possibly fashion-challenged friends on trial in front of a celebrity jury of three, and a fashion judge (who has studied law, fashion, and is a hip-hop afficionado). it's just a funny show, and it's interesting to see the makeovers.

the look for less is the runner up.

[magazine : gq]
the fact that johnny knoxville is on the cover of the september 2003 issue lets you know something: the times have changed. knoxville actully looks pretty good on the cover, it's not the knoxville you're used to seeing...he's a little more clean cut with some minute knoxvillian touches (picture suit jacket and a hilfiger dress shirt mixed with a vintage tie, wristband, soiled dickies and knoxville belt buckle). the corresponding article is a wonderful profile of the man we have known to be the supreme jack-ass (how he and a staff writer spend a night and $1,000 in atlantic city). there are new features in the magazine that reflect the americanness of pop culture and what is important to young men 18-35 in america (i.e. the verge, manual/how to...). it still maintains a fashion forward front for men, and is vintage clothing friendly. (also, if you read the september issue, you'll see what inspired my neo-nerd section)

now if only they made a gq for guys who shop on a budget...

//punk.goes[mainstream]
i'm watching television today...and i see an advertisement for the quintessential teeny-bopper-parental-bonding-film soundtrack (freaky friday)...and i can't help but notice the line-up of bands: the donnas (whose music usually consists of trying to get a guy into the backseat, or getting drunk), lillix...but then i see american hi-fi (who i helped boo at chain reaction) and bowling for soup...and i'm thinking: wow, punk...well, pop-punk is going mainstream. seems odd...

//boba
i could use some boba today. and i'd like to solidify some plans for my empty friday night. i'm out y'all.

please scroll down for an important issue concerning amina lawal's execution.

//mood//taking.an[active]stance

//something.more[important]
i've found something more important than wallowing in my self-defeat...something that needs to be stated...something that we can all take an active stance upon. amina lawal is set to be stoned to death in nigeria for the crime of adultry. she had a baby out of wedlock...after a divorce...which is considered adulterous in that country. her death sentence includes her being buried up to the neck, then stoned to death. if you want to do something about this, and you should...amnesty international is looking at this, and you can sign a petition to end the torture of women in northern nigeria. please help prevent a tragedy, or more tragedies to come.

sign the petition

//[poetry]
i added a new poem to the site...

[~]consider me incredible

//mood//down[but.not.out]
//song//standard.lines : dashboard.confessional

//luck
i think whatever luck i may have is completely dormant and/or non-existant right now. everytime that i make plans with anyone they kinda just fizzle out. whatever. it gets old and i hate it. but, whatever.

aren't things like this supposed to happen to bad people? for once...i'd just like something good to happen...instead of plan cancellations as well as friendship cancellations. damn.

some guys have all the luck...and i'm not one of them...at least not lately.

it just sucks to come to a realization that you're prolly on the bottom of everyone's lists of priorities.

right now, everything just seems like lies...bitter lies...and i really don't know who to trust around here except for myself.

goddamn it'll be nice when julie gets here...unless something happens to f__k that up.

//questions
what makes it so easy for people to blow me off?
why isn't fate on my side?
when did i stop mattering?

maybe it would be easier for everyone around here if i just disappeared for awhile...forever. no one would care. no one would notice.

//mood//awesome.possums
//song//decrescendo : rx.bandits
//lyric//did you get what you wanted? / did you get what you wanted from me?

//moody
i think i've really developed a big side of me that doesn't really deal well with negativity...that's not to say that i don't have my problems, because i do have my problems...but i've chosen not to let them drag me down, or drag others too far down.

with this, there comes a point where i fail to understand people...people who've change so drastically and radically in such a short span of time, to the point where sometimes i can't recognize you anymore. there used to be a time where i loved being around you and talking to you, and now it seems we've come to this impasse where very rarely do i see your positivity shine like it did when i first met you...but for the majority of the time you come off as stand-offish, and just about pissed at everyone, including those who have been there for you, and would be there for you if you just smiled once in awhile.

sometimes i want to walk up to you and just scream what the f__k is your problem?

it makes little sense to me that you carry your negativity around, when one of your best friends is the person who taught me to take a deep breath and let me sh_t go.

and sometimes, i just don't care. i don't care what your problem is, i don't care to know you anymore because of your negativity...your borderline bi-polarness...i can't figure you out anymore, and i don't want to anymore because it's not worth the stress.

sometimes i just want to take whatever friendship we had for what it's worth and just leave it be and let it bleed, because i am not in a place where i'm willing to let people drag me down.

sometimes i realize that once i said i see a genuine person in you, and you said back to me i'm not genuine. i remember not believing you that night, and i still kind of don't believe you...but it's your negativity that starts me to agree with you.

but, sometimes your positivity will light up and you'll be that awesome person that i met...and that's what confuses me most. it's those random moments that makes it difficult for me to dislike you.

so...i don't know...i just wish i knew what was going on with you...sometimes you come off as if you can't stand being around me, and other times you're pleasant...so, i just wish i knew what your deal was.

//good.times
i really like the hot wings @ hooters...it's my new favorite restaurant. =D

//good.times[ahead]
i think i'll be going to play at the resort tomorrow afternoon...it should be fun, i'm looking forward to it...i need fun, and i need to get out, and i need to spend my money on things other than boba drinks.

i think i've solidified one requirement of the asian stereotype: this past weekend, i didn't go a day without boba. yay for stereotypes...whatever. other than that, i'm fairly secure in the fact that people would consider me whitewashed...by whatever your definitions of asian-ness and white-ness may be.

but, chyeah! it should be a good week...because i said so, and i rock, plain and simple.

it should be a grood week.