//mood//fluffy
//costume//bunny

//wonder.ment
okay. so.

i'm in poly-sci on wednesday, and i'm cramming for my stage makeup exam. amber, who usually sits next to me keeps on saying that i'm gonna fail, i'm gonna fail...in a semi-joking way. as we're leaving class, she says to me:

okay, if you fail, you have to buy me lunch. if you pass, you have to buy me ice cream in form of celebration.

mind you, she was saying it in a semi-jokingly fashion...so...i really didn't think much about it at the time...

but, megan o was there, and i told the story to mikey...and well, they've both somewhat alluded to the fact that she wanted me to take her out...or something...

and really, i don't know what to think about it...and i really don't want to think about it...at least not too much. i mean, damn, amber is a very cute girl and whatnot...i really wouldn't mind taking her out sometime...maybe so...i don't know...eh...i'm beginning to psych myself out now...and i don't want to...so, i'll think about something else.

//[balls]
i went through my acting class today...i was wearing my bunny ears, pink bow tie, puffy tail and all...it was good times. my favorite costume that i've seen thus far was mary w wearing a french maid outfit...and if any of y'all know what i think of that...whoo! yeah.

we were doing environmental climate improv exercises today. it was funny...me and ben improvised a newscast in a studio where the a/c was out, and the so-cal fires were occuring right behind the studio...it was good times. i was the news anchor, and ben was the weatherman, sports reporter, and the on-the-field reporter at the fires. i ended up taking off my clothes to improvise the heat in the studio.

and that makes the count: 2
for the number of times i've been down to my boxers and wifebeat in class. good times.

yay for semi-nakedness...i swear...i should get naked a lot more often at school.

//i.won't[trip]
seriously, i'm not gonna trip over this whole amber thing...it's prolly just all in my mind, or whatever...no matter if two other people have confirmed my thoughts...whatever...whatever...(NATE smiles to himself)

i'm a fluffy bunny today.

happy halloween y'all.

party responsibly.

i'm more confident than i think. :)

things may not turn out the way i thought they would, but

i'm still more confident than i think. :)

yesterday was this website's first birthday. rock on. in twenty years, i'll be able to buy your kids alcoholic beverages.

//mood//rockin
//song//make.it.happen : the.early.november

//[confidence]
there are still some things in this world that completely shake my confidence and un-nerve me (ie: asking a girl out on a simple date).

i was talking to my scene partner, ayme, about relationships and life, in general...and then she brought up this quote from our acting teacher, karen:

if you've got one foot in the past and on foot in the future, then you're pissing on the present.

damnit, it's so true.

the act of doing so had not made me so nervous during the summer...at that point, i was care free and confident. nothing horribly bad or hurtful had happened to me at the time. then, it all kinda started falling apart by the end of summer. my confidence sort of dwindled and dwindled as days grew into weeks.

i need to realize something: i'm not the same person i was yesterday, so i'm definitely not the same person i was several months ago, nor a year ago...and every person is different...so, there's no use worrying about what happened however-many months ago, and there's no use worrying about what's going to happen within the next few hours. live in the moment.

i ripped this from bebe's journal.

:::10 bands you’ve been listening to lately:::
01. the early november
02. something corporate
03. rilo kiley
04. death cab for cutie
05. dashboard confessional
06. jurassic 5
07. the black eyed peas
08. the roots
09. the starting line
10. n-e-r-d

:::09 things you look forward to:::
01. fridays
02. work
03. dates
04. concerts/shows
05. cutting my demo
06. vacation/fall break/winter break
07. saturday night live
08. new music tuesdays
09. my 21st birthday (in a year and three months)

:::8 movies you can watch day after day:::
01. the sandlot
02. fantasia 2000
03. swingers
04. punch-drunk love
05. lost in translation
06. ferris beuller's day off
07. lilo & stitch
08. caddyshack

:::07 things that annoy you:::
01. jessica a., from my acting class
02. lack-of-self-confidence-in-myself
03. bad acting
04. being stood-up
05. being lied to
06. drama (at work, in relationships)
07. mainstream hip-hop

:::06 things you touch everyday:::
01. my hair
02. my steering wheel
03. guitar
04. piano
05. keyboard
06. pen/paper

:::05 things you do everyday:::
01. work on music
02. slack off
03. eat chicken
04. check out girls
05. drink lemonade

::: 04 people you want to spend more time with:::
01. theatre department kids
02. mom
03. mig
04. chris

:::03 things you like to wear:::
01. button down dress shirts under t-shirts
02. my black suit
03. jeans

:::02 of your favorite songs at the moment:::
01. baby blue by the early november
02. she paints me blue by something corporate

:::01 person that you'd spend the rest of your life with:::
01. i've not met that person yet...i'm only nineteen!

nothing to write about today...i just don't really care much today...i'm having a good day...that's it for the day...check back in tomorrow, or wednesday...or whenever...just refer to the last entry, and remember the savory laughter and goodness you experienced when you read about my metrosexuality.