hey t!ff...it's been awhile, i miss talking to you...in due time. hope you're doing well.

same to everyone else...i hope everyone is doing well.

i've actually been doing alright, despite my prolonged singledom and loneliness...friends do wonders at making you forget how pathetic you are with women.

i want someone.

i wanna hang onto something
that won't break away or fall apart
like the pieces of my heart
--something corporate : globes and maps

as for now i wish that i was anywhere with anyone
making out.
--dashboard confessional : screaming infidelities

i've been listening to a lot of emo music lately...i've really been digging it.

as a result, my music-writing has been diverted from hip-hop to rock...it's been cool...it's a different kind of outlet.

the song i've been working on sounds pretty cool so far...i like it lyrically and musically so far, but i really need to work on the hook...i'm stuck on that part, that and the drum beat during trasitions and the hook...right now, i really like it.

i bumped into carie today, it was cool. everytime we bump into eachother, it's really cool. when i think of it, it sucks that we spent most of high school hating eachother...but, it's the past...right? yeah.

so, yeah...i'm looking for new bands to get into...i've been getting into something corporate, dashboard confessional, jimmy eat world and taking back sunday...so, anyone have any other suggestions for bands to get into??

i can't believe i've gone from hip-hop to emo...kinda.

if you still care at all, don't call.
--jimmy eat world : your house

okay...so, things were great, great, on friday when i went out with jennifer.

the days to follow sucked, and they continue to suck. she hasn't called me, nor has she returned my calls...so...yeah.

i don't know if i'm gonna say anything more about that...it kinda speaks for itself.

what the hell is wrong with me?

after one good date...the girl doesn't want to talk to me.
after one good convo on the phone...girl doesn't want to talk to me anymore.
after one good chance meeting...girl doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

i don't get it. the vibe is right...but then...nothing.

what's wrong with me?

nothing.

i'm just gonna take those moments for what they were: good moments.

unfortunately...as many awesome moments i go through...i'm still lonely.

i wish i knew why jennifer isn't talking to me, instead of just wondering...i'd rather just know whether or not she liked me...i really liked her...but, whatever.

it sucks that i've just become numb to things sucking with girls.

karma sucks...i'm ready for something good to happen now.

yo-yo-yo...so, it didn't take me to realize that once i started my six week vacation that i wouldn't get as many chances to get on-line...but school starts again next week, so, i'll be back in the swing of things.

right now, todays post is brought to us courtesy of sean's super bowl get together...yeah, just me, sean, and chris...it's cool...i've got work in a couple hours...poop on that.

things have been very good in the house of crackalack lately...very awesomely good.

i've been shopping my ass off at hollister...i might be a shopaholic...but, i look good with this addiction...damn good. yeeahh.

the best thing: last friday, i went out with jennifer...the girl from my work that i thought was cute...that one...yeeah. it was such an awesome, awesome date. it was the best date that i'd been on...it was my first date in awhile. i felt like i could really be myself with her, uncensored, goofy and geeky as all hell...just me, pure me. she is so awesome...i had never gone out with a girl before where i felt like i could introduce her to my friends and we all could hang out and be cool. i was so used to going on dates with girls where i couldn't really be myself, or had to watch what i said...and those dates would suck...this one rocked.

yeah...i really like jennifer.

(smiles)

so...yeah...in a week, i'll be back to update my sites, and get back on track with the poetry site.

so...things that rock:
my friends.
jennifer.
my life.

one last thing: this is my last week at target!!!