//update
in case you haven't started reading my live journal...here's a quick re-cap of what you've been missing:

yay carina.
boo carina.
go away carina.
tasia turned me down.
chilled with the out-of-townies.
mikey's venn-diagram turned into a penis.
roscoe's.
got drunk.
got drunk.
got drunk.
left messages.
i'm a pervert?
who's spreading rumours?
digital camera-ness!
dashboard confessional AND elvis costello.
got drunk.
megan blow up.
depresso.
found an independent record store.
happy again!

to fill in the gaps...you need to go to my livejournal...seriously.

//myself
the best thing that i can do right now is start a loving, caring, and genuine relationship with myself. that's my point a...and i need to get to point a.

point b would be developing those kinds of relationships with other people.

i can't really get to point b until i get to point a.

right now, i'm a zero point.

diagram
zero - - - - - - - - - a - - - - - - - - - - b

zero point is when you've pounded all of these thoughts into your head, to the point that all you've got is thoughts, and nothing else...and thoughts have gotten me nowhere except into the ground.

action.