whereabouts//mainframe.computer.lounge@csufullerton
feelabouts//awwwwwwesome.yet.partially.deafened
hearabouts//iF U C jordan : something corporate
wearabouts//faded.denims (yet again) / baby blue striped hollister co. polo (white stripes, thinner yellow stripes in stripes) / white.tan.vans / heather.grey.wifebeat / glasses

the something corporate concert was FUCKING AWESOME!!!

i didn't really care much about the opening band: steel train. it really wasn't the flavor i was looking for that particular night, and, well...the music really didn't do much being an opening band. i wasn't amped after that. i wanted to be amped.

then...a band i hadn't heard of took the stage. not knowing what to expect, i opened my ears...and vendetta red got me rocking out.

after them, one of the co-headliners came up: the juliana theory. now, i am so far disappointed by their recent album love...but, hearing the band live made me think twice. they freaking rock live. they made a good fan out of me. now i know what all the hype is about.

finally, between sets you see a piano adorned with several stickers grace the stage. this means only one thing: something corporate. and did they ever rock. every minute of their set was worth the shit i went through in the crowd...i weened my way from a back corner to one layer behind the front wall...and it was awesome...being right there in front of andrew and the infamous piano.

aside from being kicked in the head by crowd surfers, or being dry-humped by anonymous strangers...it was a kick-ass night.

no, i take that back...being kicked in the head and being dry-humped was equally awesome.

this was my first rock concert...punk-rock concert...and it really fucking rocked. i like mosh-pits...uber-fun.

there is only one ounce of disappointment. a few weeks ago, at least at the new york show, andrew used to set the piano on fire at the end of the set...but, i'm guessing after the club fire, it may be in bad taste...but, it would have been fucking awesome to see him set the shit on fire...but, seeing him stand on the piano (keys and all) and rock out at the end of iF U C jordan is still awesome.

i can barely hear anything today, but it is worth it.

next concert: american hi-fi + allister @ chain reaction.

i just got my last hepatitis b immunization shot today...i hate needles, but, this is the only shot that i can stand, because it doesn't hurt.

i really need to find a second job soon, the paychecks do not come as often as i need them with my current job.

i like having more fun in my life, and not engaging deep thought. engaging in deep thought gets depressing after awhile...i like my simple life.

fuck you jordan
-- something corporate : iF U C jordan

location//mainframe.lounge@csufullerton
everything.else//the.same

headlines:
mr. rogers dies at 74
mr. rogers was a big part of my childhood. i grew up watching him...i can only wish my future children can find someone remotely similar to him when they're growing up. a moment of silence is appropriate.










republicans, cookies, affirmative action, and berkeley.
i consider this a very ballsy move by berkeley college republicans...but, noble. i am quite the liberal, but i do support the stand that these kids were making...personally, i think it's really important. affirmative action is evil...an un-necessary evil, in my opinion. this thing used to subvert racism only breeds it. i don't need a damn handout to get into college.

i usually don't find a lot of things newsworthy, especially to post on the site...but, it's really imporatant to know what is going on in the world around you...it's important to be informed about everything, otherwise...you're bound to the world, rather than the world being bound to you.

i've recently been harvesting this screw it attitude to a lot of things, most notably school...not good. oh well...i want more coffee. and food. and my cds.

dude! hollister co., my favorite clothing store, is using something corporate to advertise stuff!! yeah, they're selling hollister brand something corporate shirts to promote their tour...i thought that was freaking awesome.

okay...i'm gonna go now...gotta go to san diego for the concert.

YEAHHHHHH!!!

here//underground@csufullerton
feel//a.happy.disposition
hear//where.it's.at : beck
wear//faded.denims / light.blue.long.sleeve.button.down.collar.shirt / blue.denim.jacket / glasses / white.tee.shirt / black.tan.kicks

damn you rain...damn you.

SOMETHING CORPORATE TONIIIIIGHT!!!

yeah...i'm damn excited. but, i've gotta get through the day first...damned obstacles.

so, i got my second draft reviewed by my english professor...and, yeah...i finally got the criticism i needed. he said that i have a good voice throughout (yeah, that's my strength), but, a lot of it was unguided...as it didn't show relation back to the thesis...and...so, yeah.

i want some caffiene right now. my day really hasn't started until i get my buzz...i want my buzz.

i think i'm gonna need a few shots of espresso today...

i'm so tired, and not in the mood to deal with school today. i really don't like my tuesday-thursday classes...probably just based on the fact that they're not theatre classes...i like my english class, but it hasn't met...so...ugh.

anthro is impossible...it's likeable, but impossible.
chemistry is unbearably boring, as is the lab.

i'm in a good mood today...really.

i just need my coffee.

today will be a kick-ass day. baby.

i wanna talk to someone...but i need to do my chem homework.

i just want to talk to someone to talk...not about anything in general...but just stuff...have you ever been in one of those moods?

i'm really in the mood to just start talking to some random stranger right now...

being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up:
these are the best days of our lives.
the only thing that matters is just following your heart
and eventually you'll finally get it right.
-- the ataris : in this diary

something corporate tomorrow!!! w/juliana theory and vendetta red!!!

although i might have been overdoing my caffiene consumption this past week, i've been feeling happier and more social as a result. i like it that way. i want it that way.

tell me why.

ain't nothing but a heartache...or borderline addiction.

i don't know...i don't think i'm a caffiene addict. a couple friends thought i was last year, but i think they were joking. but, yeah.

i wonder if it's possible to get caffiene withdrawls...because, i think i had one yesterday...that's why i was bitchy in the morning.

oh well.

damn! the site looks nice!

i've been meeting the nicest people lately. i had this wonderful conversation on my walk to my car with one of the staff members here at school. it was just refreshing...

then, i started talking to sarah in my voice and movement class, and she is really cool.

it's been easier to talk to girls now that i haven't been objectifying them as potential mates...just as people...now that i don't care about singleness, it's been easier to be myself.

i talked to brittany on-line today...it was cool.

now i'm done for the day...i swear...i'm blogged out for the day.

3 years gone by and still everyone screws up our name
no matter what you do still some things never change
-- the ataris : teenage riot

holy crap...i just spent the last hour re-doing the site...i hope you like it...leave me your comments...comments are now provided by enetation...because the other one was crap.

now it's time to actually do what i'm supposed to...revise my essay titled being a gay dogeating band geek in american high school...it's about stereotypes.

and.i.am.at//titan.student.union@csufullerton
and.i.feel//achy.still...but.happy
and.i.hear//the.scientist : coldplay
and.i.wear//faded jeans, grey striped hollister co. polo, red hollister co. zip-up hoodie, white/khaki vans, smile, glasses.

hi t!ff!

so yeah, my body is still hella sore from monday...and i've got voice and movement...the class that stretches the hell out of you...i'm gonna try to be a happy camper today. i love the class anyways.

yesterday was kinda crap because of my chem lab class...the professor doesn't know what he's doing, and anytime he tried to show us what to do, it'd be quite counter-productive...ughh...but...the payoff: it was really freakin' sunny when we got out of class!

so...yeah...

and, lab wasn't all that bad, i got to talk to my home-girl kim...and that was cool...i told her about my valentine's day weekend from hell, and he told me about the valentine's day that was just another day with her boyfriend. that's how it should be: valentine's day should just be another day, there really shouldn't be any significant changes in the way you treat your lover...although, she always says that they're a boring couple...but, that's cool for them, i guess, if she's happy...i guess. i think we're gonna chill sometime this weekend...or sometime, whenever.

so yeah...i had the hardest time getting adjusted to a little less caffiene yesterday...i was withdrawn from it yesterday, but, i was fine by the afternoon...but in the morning i was illin'...buggin out...yo.

i'm having a difficult time trying to figure out which new template i want to use for this site...i've seen a few that i like, but, expect a change soon...i'm also having a difficult time being motivated to copy and paste the links elsewhere, since they'll disappear in the transition...pleh...

yeah...i've been doing better since i've decided to not be so pre-occupied with being single...although it gets difficult when you pass by a really beautiful girl, or something to that extent...but, yeah...i've been better lately. (smile)

as i'm talking my words slip to the floor
and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door
rendering me freakish and dazed
-- saves the day : freakish

here//titan.student.union@csufullerton
feeling//happy...body.hurts.like.crazy
music//drunk girl : something corporate (it was the last thing i heard)
on my body//black ribbed turtleneck, faded jeans, charcoal plaid jacket, black/tan kicks, glasses.

rain, rain, go away...go and bug the shit out of some other city.

yesterday was awesome, kinda...well, it was good.

so, i wake up, go to school...and i go ahead and have myself a starbucks doubleshot before class, because i don't dare go into an acting-related class without the proper energy. i have a blast in class, learn a little and stuff. after that...i go ahead and get another starbucks doubleshot...that's my second one. and, i'm pretty buzzed/wired.

i make my way down to bellflower for work, expecting to do a lot of filing and crap. sheri tells me: change of plans, you're driving out to los angeles to go to the edge and take some hip-hop dance classes.

and i'm like: cool.

the hip-hop classes were awesome...the instructors were amazing...i felt a little in over my head due to the fact that it was the first time that i've taken any formal hip-hop class...

i'm used to freestyling at my own will...following hip-hop choreography is a whole different thing.

needless to say...i was already stretched out from my voice and movement class...then, with all the stretching in two hip-hop classes, and the physical demands from both classes...

...i hit my caffeine low (from 2-doubleshot-espressos) and was physically worn out to the bone.

but, damn it felt good to sweat.

my body is hella aching today...all my joints are stiff and shit...but, whatever. it was all worth it.

it seems like all the hip-hop choreographers are using justin timberlake for choreography...we did use that one jc chasez song for a warm-up though...

one more thing...expect a change on this site...the layout has gotten boring to me...so...yeah.

i met a girl who kept tattoos for homes that she had loved
if i were her i'd paint my body until all my skin was gone
-- something corporate : woke up in a car

place//titan.student.union@csufullerton
mood//good
music.in.head//up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, b, a, start : the ataris
wear//yellow anchor blue polo w/bold blue stripes, w/other colors / dark cargos / white-tan.vans / denim.jacket / glasses

okay...so...

the grammys actually caught my attention this year, and it was good attention. i was glad to see that norah jones won eight grammys...her album is awesome, unique, and well deserving of such recognition. in a world dominated by popular mainstream sounds, norah jones outshines a good majority of her contemporaries.

nelly's performance was weak...hella weak.

eminem really impressed me last night...a live band backing a hip-hop artist will always make me pay attention, especially when that band is the roots. that performance sort of told me if the roots can perform with eminem, maybe eminem is worth a few more listens. the roots are a very socially consious band, and i was elated to see them get national exposure...it would have been perfect if they had a chance to their own music, but nothing is perfect...at least they're getting the exposure that they deserve, kinda.

but, yeah...

i don't think that i'm going to stress over the girl situation anymore...after some careful thought, i realized that the best things have come to me while i didn't expect them...so...yeah. and, feeling like i have some sort of security helps...knowing that i'm not destined to be pathetically alone helps....it makes me happy.

so...i'm gonna bail for the day...i've got work today, i defecate on work...but it's good money. you can't defecate on good money.

sometimes you gotta stop and remember.
that your not gonna be young forever.
think smart, have fun, stay true
and don't ever grow up.
-- the ataris : up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, b, a, start