it is, indeed, saturday night. and i am sitting in my room alone. so...shit.

i'm a dumbass...i had this post i was typing...then i accidentally deleted it before i saved it...long story short:

1. i'm going out tonight, i don't know with whom, or where...but i'm doing it. i'm determined.
2. i've got money.
3. 7-eleven slurpee machine was down and spouting runny-ass slurpees...pissed me off.
4.starbucks was closed...couldn't get my favorite drink...pissed me off.
5. my favorite drink is the tazoberry blended creme w/whipped cream...it's that funky purple thing you always see me drinking.
6. that was it.

okay...so yeah...i'm going out tonight...i'm finding a girl and making plans to go out...it'll be grand and splendiferous.

are you listenin'? whoa-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!!!

i hadn't listened to the jimmy eat world cd lately until yesterday morning, it was a nice refreshing experience...like, seriously.

so, like, a couple days ago i woke up with a frown on my face with the words "oh holy crap, it's only tuesday." hanging on my lips...and, i wake up late this morning with a smile and utter "whoopty-fuck! it's thursday!!"...for those of y'all in high school, my thursday is the equivalent to your friday, since it's the end of my school week. and yes, i uttered the words "whoopty-fuck." so, there.

okay, i'm just guessing, if you've left a message on a girl's cell phone on two consecutive days, that's usually not a favorable thing, right? i think i'm going to give up on that one...i've still got another girl i could spend an evening with this weekend...but, i don't know...i've got a bad feeling she's involved with someone, since both nights i've seen her, she'd ran outside to talk on her cell phone with someone...unless it was a friend...but, i don't know...with my luck lately, every girl i've met has already been involved with someone...so...it kinda sucks...but, what can you do?

BUT I DAMN SURE DON'T WANT TO SPEND ANOTHER FRIDAY _and/or SATURDAY ALONE SITTING ON MY ASS!!!

damnit, damnit all...i've got a nice open weekend, and i'm gonna have a good time, damnit. ( !!! )

college tip #1:
don't wait until you have a couple hours before class to begin typing up the paper that's due that next class. that's bad.

i hope everyone out there is having a good week so far. i woke up, went to school, and then said to myself holy crap, it's only tuesday? yeah, i'm looking forward to the weekend, i think that's a perpetual habit of mine...i used to enjoy the week...but, the weekend is my main source of joy...why?
1. pay-day is friday.
2. free-time.
3. date-time.
4. time with friends.
5. there's always room for a fifth.

so yeah. i'm really looking forward to thanksgiving break...no school for a week...nice. the drawback...finals are rapidly approaching...i'm hardly ready for finals...but i am ready for the time-off to follow. maybe it's because i've been so busy, but lately i've been wanting to be lazy...i wanna be lazy...i wanna have a class devoted to nap-time.

poopy. i can't make it to the ben folds + piano concert tomorrow night.
1. because i have a rehearsal at the same time.
2. i haven't the monetary means to purchase a ticket to such an event.
so, yeah...oh well...life goes on...right?

well...yeah...that's it for now.

i need to figure out a good idea for a date this weekend, that is, if she still wants to go out this weekend...well, actually, we're just getting together...i don't want to get in over my head...we'll just see where it goes from there...i think we'll have fun. yeeahh...

one more thing...last thing...good mood music for the week: the strokes.

i don't know if i'm just being a paranoid liberal democrat, but, it just seems like it's bad doctrine of faith to be preaching politics and making politics in mass prayer. i was at church, and the pastor started prayer talking about election week and made a comment that things may not have gone so well in california (the re-election of gov. grey davis, a democrat), but saying that at least the rest of the country is going in the right direction (the repulican control of congress), and the hopefully new supreme court justices will be appointed to revert the country to a "christian lifestyle" (an implication of overturning the roe v. wade decision)...now, i sat in church, and i was offended as ever. as a pro-choice democrat, i felt like he was pointing the holy finger at me, and saying that my ways are the spawn of the devil...

i can respect the fact that my pastor may be a republican, it's kind of unavoidable living in orange county...but, the fact is...it just seems like bad doctrine to be preaching politics in a church setting....i'm a strong believer in separation of church and state. one should not be advocating politics in a religious setting.

i'll go back to that church next week, the pastor gets one more chance, but...he's on his last chance, there are other churches i can go to where i won't feel persecuted for my political beliefs.

it's such bullshit...why did i have to get harder to be a minority democratic artist in orange county...why'd it have to happen in church? it really pisses me off.

okay...more on the persecution thing. there are a couple girls at my work who have piercings right below their bottom lip. every now and then, there will be an insensitive guest who comes in, all pissed off because the piercing offends them...and they complain to a manager about it. freakin' narrow minded ass-holes. saying that we shouldn't hire people with piercings is like saying we shouldn't hire tall, white men with shaved heads because it'll look like we support white supremacy, or that we shouldn't hire openly gay people, or that we shouldn't hire ( whatever group that you want to put in here) because of ( insert asanine reason here).

is it really your business to be commenting on it? is it your piercing? is this what you want to teach your children? to be so socially intolerant, to shun away those who are different? if so, in this case, you're no better than the run of the mill racist, or homophobe, or whatever...

let us not pass judgement on others, that's God's job.

the long, unorganized list of things i like entry (part i):

saturday night live, ben folds, the gap, old navy, funny white girls who can't dance, funny girls of all races, all people who can't dance, people who can dance, ghetto-booty, suburban-booty, ambiguity, dating, disneyland, disneyland california adventure, n-e-r-d.

end part i.

so, yeah...do you wanna be fly like me?!?

well...
step 1: buy expensive, overpriced clothes.
step 2: make the grim realization that you could have gotten the clothes cheaper if you went to, oh, say...old navy.
step 3: make these frivolous expenses enough so that you work yourself into horrible, horrible credit debt.

done? NICE!!!

and that's nate's stupid-ass lesson for the day.

tip: next time you go into target, don't talk to the guest service people like they're f*cking dumb, we know how to do our job, and we know how the system works.
oh, that's right. i'm behind the counter, what the hell could i possibly know?

so...yeah...grand theft auto: vice city is awesome...frivolous violence at it's best. usually i don't condone such non-sense...but usually i talk like i'm a freakin nut...so, there.

it's really weird when i realize the complete overhaul that i've planned for the next few years of my life. it's kinda creepy making that realization...but it's a good creepy...so don't worry. yeah...i'm happy.

i wish i was capable of being a good boyfriend for long periods of time...but....i don't think i am....i'm lacking something that will enable me to be committed for more than a few weeks...maybe it's just because i haven't found what i'm looking for. i'd like to be someone's good boyfriend...i guess that time will come whenever it does...that's one of the reasons i choose to just date around...but, nothing has come up lately...so, whatever. i'm actually pretty happy being single...kinda crazy.

i'm out, yo...peace.

shit nate, you're psycho.
i know.