//mood//[hot]like[hot.food]

//new.songs
just just posted the two latest songs i've finished on poetic impulse.

[~] drowning
[~] letter to a stranger

//back.ground
the story behind drowning is that of a doomed relationship...it seems easy to write songs about those...but, anyways...yes...it's about person a not having the available time to spend with person b, and person b ends up drowning in explanations, and lost in the events of person a's life. this song isn't so much autobiographical, although i have been through this before...but, it's a universal situation a lot of people go through, and i think people will be able to relate to it to an extent. it's more of a story if anything.

the story behind letter to a stranger is kind of nice. i'd wanted to write a light-hearted song for awhile, and i did so with this one...kinda. i was sitting in the alumni lounge one morning just observing people, and i realized that people really isolate themselves a lot...and i didn't really like it. so, the song is really about a lot of people...myself included. but, yeah...the song is about the distances strangers put between eachother...and that there's so much about the world we'll never know if we maintain this habit. i like this song a lot...it makes me happy whenever i play it.

//friiiii.day
it's friday baby...and i get off work at seven o'clock...so does my friend jamie, so we decided to possibly hang out and chill...we'll probably go to disneyland...we'll see...it'll be fun times...i look forward to it. this kinda serves as a follow up to that whole i need to go out...i need a date thing i was talking about earlier...it's a platonic date, but i'm going out...that's what i need. whether or not it's a date? i don't know...i don't like labeling things, labels distort my mind and confuse me...i just wanna chill right now. all i want to do is chill. i just say thing because i know people will be making the implications that this is a date...and really, all i wanna do is chill and hang out.

i've been changing a lot...i've been like clay lately with all the changes i've been going through...but, i've been growing up a lot fast...i'm liking myself a lot more than i used to.

you know what? i feel really good today! :)

//new.music
the new john mayer cd roxors much...i like it, and listening to clarity and bigger than my body put me in a good mood.

//mood//i.[rock]and-that's-all.that.matters

//morning
it's wednesday morning, and i'm almost broke. but...i get money tomorrow....so, it ain't so bad...right? right.

i decided to go get breakfast, and i bumped in the jamie r, and that was cool...we talked and stuff...after finding out that my books were still not in...i returned to the student union, and met back up with jamie, as well as matt paz and crystal l...and then quan dropped by...so, it was a congrgation of sorts. good times.

//date
i need to go out...soon. as scared as i am to spend money, i need to go out soon.

//i.care.not
i care not to really get back into contact with annie...it seemed like a bright idea at the time...but, the more i think about it, the more apathetic i become...i just don't have the time, and it's not that important to me to try to get into contact with her again.

i'm actually just giving up a lot of things that i just do not feel the need to persue...it makes me happy to give up...because a lot of the things that i persue are just excess...and i'm really happy with what i've got.

//mood//jumpy

//eyeliner!!
i'm so effing hot with this eyeliner on my face.

okay...so, i'm in make-up class, and i'm totally unprepared for today's lab: i didn't know that we were doing it today...so, i'm kinda jumping in head first on our first project: draw a skull on your face. i thought that i was gonna suck ass...but i did really well, and i was really happy!

i washed off all the make up, except for the black around my eyes...because i think it looks really hot.

//my[miss]list
some people have hit lists...this is the list of the people that i miss...in no particular order:

[~] julie: you'll be back...but we're missing you in the meantime.
[~] mig: i need to make more money to make that overdue trip up to no-cal.
[~] kristen: breakfast baby, breakfast soon.
[~] carie: haven't seen you since the porno drinking games.
[~] mikey: i wanna be an honorary jew again.
[~] mooni: it's mooni...what's not to miss?
[~] josh v.: as much as i hate you...i still love you man.
[~] t!ff: we haven't talked as much as we used to...hope you're doing well.
[~] karen w.: too many indy goodbyes.
[~] stephani e.: who's gonna call me pumkin at work?
[~] brit+stace: those two were fun girls to be around.
[~] linds l.: i wanna streak down your street again.
[~] chs drama kids

more people on this list...i'm only human though, so, don't be offended if you expected to be on this list...i forget sometimes too.

it's always nice to bump into someone you haven't seen in a long time...like, i bumped into sarah staton at hallmark when i was getting julie's going away gift wrapped up...and i was really nice to see how she's been. she's so loveable...serious.

//mood//hormonally.excited

//ignorance
okay, so i'm at fastpass validation, and these four white kids come up to me...and i hear one of them say wow, that's amazing, he speaks so good english for someone that's not from this country...and all i can do is think what the hell did you just say?...of course i can't say that...but...christ almighty...

after decades of social progress, i think you'd have to be pretty damn ignorant to think, or even, say such a thing.

little bastards.

another thing that i can't stand is when people, who clearly speak english as a native tounge and don't know spanish, do this:

me: how many people are in your group?
them: dose...dose

that's right...first off, they have the valley accent there, so they're not sayiny dos, they're saing dose. and i can just think what the hell in your mind makes you think that i can understand what you just said?

i'm just a short brown boy who doesn't know english...that's what i've concluded. ignorant bastards.

but, bo is my wondertwin. and that's good times.