//mood//elated
//song//talk.to/me.dance.w/me : hot.hot.heat

//flattered
to have unexpected little things (i.e. text messages, voicemails) flatter you in the sweetest way, when you haven't been flattered in a long time--it is a good feeling...a very good feeling...like, the smile on my face only begins to shine some light on how good it feels. =)

//[two.days]off
yesterday was my first day back to work after a couple days off...and i will say: those were the two best days off that i've had in a long time...albeit, i didn't get a whole lot of sleep in those nights, it was so well worth it, i must say.

//back.to.work
going back to work wasn't so bad. i got bumped out to walk really early, which was nice, because i was hella tired (10 hours of sleep within 3-4 days). i was expecting to get really stressed out at work, but, it wasn't so bad--say for grouping people who don't get the concept that we do things a certain way so that we can accomodate everyone. to top everything off, by the time that i checked my messages kristen left me a couple messages that totally brightened up my night!

when i was driving home, i was crazy tired...i hate driving when i'm that tired...it isn't fun. i do everything in my power to stay awake: windows down, music blasting...ugh...

i was just happy to finally get a full night's sleep for once. i slept from 12-9:30, and it was soooo niice.

//another.day.off
i'm so happy that i've got sunday off, as well as wednesday, and i get off @ 5:30 on saturday...i've got a nice work week coming up. tomorrow will be my laundry day, as well as the locale a.m. show (well, they're opening, but i'm going for them) w/chris. we don't hang out as much as we used to, but when we do it is good times. locale is a cool band, i'm looking forward to seeing them live (vive le music de punk). i don't know how else i'm utilizing my time off from work, aside from schoolwork...but, i'm planning on spending some time with a certain girl, because it's always fun times with her ;)

//to.my.friends.dealing.with.adversity
please keep your heads up...i love you guys.

although it seems like when it rains it pours...it'll get better. mig, even though you're so far away, and i don't really know any of your friends, i wish i could be there for all of you to help y'all feel better in some way. eventually, the rain will stop.

to my indy girls (who i chilled with on thursday afternoon)...please don't get stressed out and don't let any crap drag you down...you two are my favorite indy girls, and i wouldn't want to see either of you immensely sad or frazzled.

i'm there for you because i know you'll be there for me, if you haven't been there already.

now it seems that things are really getting better in my life.
is it just today that things are really getting better? we'll see tonight.
--n-e-r-d : things are getting better

//mood//smiling.like.this: =D

//oil.change
okay, so, i got my oil changed...and i see my car just sitting there for a good half-an-hour, and i knew that they'd already worked on my car...so, i'm thinking wtf?!...whatever, it's done. send it.

//another.day[off]
yesterday was another day off well spent (@work)...when you work at a place like that, it's easy to splurge your free time there. but, yeah, i hung out with julie and jessica...and it was good times. (we're gonna miss you julie). then i had dinner with julie @ espnzone...it's not like i remembered it...which was kinda saddening.

but, after all the disney-ness with indy kids, i went to the movies with kristen...good times. :)

//going
i'm gonna cut this short...don't have much more that i wanna say here...so, have a good weekend y'all!

//mood//[walking]on.clouds+smashing ;D
//music//[hands.down] : dashboard.confessional

//smiles+stuff
if the smile on my face makes it seem like i slept with a hanger in my mouth, it's because my smile is, indeed, that big. to make the explaination concise and to the point: i had a wondrous day yesterday.

//about[dash]songs
i've had a load of their songs lingering in my mind, these three particularly because of how they've related to me in the recent week.

[hands.down] chris carabba wrote that song in regards to the best date that he ever had, hands down.

[so.impossible] i think this song is about the curiousity that serves as prelude to a first date.

[remember.to.breathe] i think this song is about the nervousness and excitement/anxiety that serves as prelude on the night/minutes right before a date.

all of those songs were on the same ep...

//feel.better.times
it didn't feel good to see a handful of my friends, good friends, go through tough times in this past week. these are really good people. when i see friends on the verge of tears...or the strong exerting all their strength to maintain composure...or the people who couldn't give a damn start giving a damn...it makes you want to spread your positivity toward them. i'm trying. i know people can't be happy 24/7, and good things can't exist without bad--but, still, it sucks to see people you care about go through adverse times.

ice cream helps through tough times.

//off.i.go
time to go to class and stuff.

my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
so won't you kill me? so i die happy.
--dashboard.confessional : hands down

//mood//something.like.excited
//currently.playing//punk.rock.princess : something.corporate

//1ce.again
for another morning, i start off my day by wearing the hell out of my leaving through the window cd...it just felt like one of those mornings where i needed to hear it, for whatever reason...but, whatever, it's really alright. this is how i start off my good days...i think.

//ain't.gonna.lie
i'm excited today. in fact,
i'm excited for today.
i'm a dork.

//good.ness
i spent last night not revising my essay, but talking to kristen on the phone. i think that i made the right choice and made my time well spent...if i say so myself.

//examples.of[influence]
okay, so on monday, when i was thinking about how i wanted to be influential...this happened on my way out of the library:

the lady in front of me walked out of the library and held the door open for me.
i, in turn, was influenced to hold the door open for the lady walking behind me.
the lady behind me held the door open for the man behind her.
the thing about the man behind her is that he had a humungous stack of books in his hands and would not have been able to open the doors by himself.

i couldn't help but take it as an allegorical occurence of how the power of influence works to help the world.

influence + positivity = better world.

now, i want to get back to spirituality...as long as my political views don't get bashed by the next pastor i start listening to, it'll be fine.

i still think politics and religion do not mix.

but, i think in order to gravitate back toward positivity in my life, i need to get back to growing spiritually.

//so...
50 cent's music has been making me laugh lately...i don't want to dis him...but...i just think that songs like magic stick and p.i.m.p. are hilarious...and when you start a song with the phrase we're gonna sip bacardi like it's your birthday...it just puts a chuckle in my mouth.

//fini
gotta end this entry.
time to be gangsta.
with my pooka-shell bling-bling on my neck.

//mood//glee...like.the.club
//song//konstantine : something corporate...for whatever reason.

//re-evaluation[of]importance
i'm taking the time to re-evaluate what is important in my life...i think the fact that i haven't done this in awhile may have been the core of why i'd been so crabby in the past few months...now that i'm taking the time to think about it, i think it'll make some decision-making a little easier.

quite simply, i think the most important thing in my life is the fact that i have the power to influence others...(i.e. my little brother, students from the class i intern taught, etc.,...)

i really want to make my life a model for the people i influence...and that's what is most important to me.

i've been trying to live my life toward success--and success used to mean that i'd be famous. being famous doesn't make you important nor successful. what makes you important is how you influence others...and i think i'm an influential person, or i can be influential.

in this, i'm really pondering whether or not i should still be a theatre major. i've been pondering this for a long, long time...and quite simply, i might just change to become an english major, since i love writing, and i could persue that teaching career that i had once considered awhile back.

through being a teacher, i'll have an outlet to influence my students how to express themselves in a beautiful way...i've had wonderful english teachers who have influenced me to be expressive as well as eloquent...

i don't know...we'll see.

//on.the((subj))of.[love]
of all things important in my life, i think love is really high up there. the love of others. the love of yourself. letting yourself be loved by others. it is so important. there is no life without love.

//spiritual.quest
i need to get back on the spiritual journey that i started awhile back. i still believe in God, in the sense that i know that there is a higher power out there. i just need to get back to studying the different approaches to spirituality throughout the world. eastern philosophy still intrigues me.

//this.week
i'm probably gonna get together with kristen tomorrow, wednesday, or thursday...i'm looking forward to it, it should be fun getting to know each other. i think we'll probably go to disneyland, because it's always fun, we know people there, and i really can't think of anything else at the moment.

okay...gonna go home and eat...'cause i'm fungry...yes, fungry.

//song
two songs have been predominantly stuck in my head for the past few days:
[~]so impossible : dash
[~]justfriends : musiq

//mood//simply.happy
//song//newness : musiq

//back[to]work
yesterday was my first day back at work in a couple days...i kinda missed it, but i kinda didn’t. i was on a caffeine high for most of my shift...but, by the end of my shift my caffeine rush crashed and work became quite banal (well, the guests did). after work i went to denny’s w/jessica, byron, steve and jessica’s friend kelly...and it was good times.

//found.my.smile
for these past few days i’ve been in a better mood than usual, and i think the source of that is a little bit of infatuation, and the fact that i’ve kinda started back up on the songwriting and poetry stuff, among other things.

infatuation can get you smiling at simple text messages, and it’s a good feeling. when you make an instant connection or find instantaneous chemistry with somebody, it’s a good feeling. it’s comforting.

//poetry
i went ahead and added a new poem to poetic impulse. so, hop on over there and check it out, leave your comments...here, and there.

[~]i'm in no rush