//mood//down[but.not.out]
//song//standard.lines : dashboard.confessional

//luck
i think whatever luck i may have is completely dormant and/or non-existant right now. everytime that i make plans with anyone they kinda just fizzle out. whatever. it gets old and i hate it. but, whatever.

aren't things like this supposed to happen to bad people? for once...i'd just like something good to happen...instead of plan cancellations as well as friendship cancellations. damn.

some guys have all the luck...and i'm not one of them...at least not lately.

it just sucks to come to a realization that you're prolly on the bottom of everyone's lists of priorities.

right now, everything just seems like lies...bitter lies...and i really don't know who to trust around here except for myself.

goddamn it'll be nice when julie gets here...unless something happens to f__k that up.

//questions
what makes it so easy for people to blow me off?
why isn't fate on my side?
when did i stop mattering?

maybe it would be easier for everyone around here if i just disappeared for awhile...forever. no one would care. no one would notice.