//mood//slightly.bruised+broken
//but//still.smiling...kinda

//the[score]so.far
flakes: 4
nate: 0

getting shut-out and and shut-down by the flakes is getting quite tedious and old...

i think i'm gonna have to go to the doctor and get this internal flake magnet removed...

at least this time around i know why...and i know that it's a legitimate reason...but still, i hate investing time into things only to find out they won't happen.

if you're just tuning into the nate zablan show, you'll be wise to know that my biggest pet peeve, if i ever had one, is flakiness. the only things that i like to be flaky are my hot pockets...not my friends.

//song//head.on.collision
and it feels like i've reached an all time low.

i guess the flaking isn't the only thing that's eating at me. i feel left behind by someone, and hurt as a result.

for these negative feelings comes the cathartic release of words:

[~]goodbye...minus the good
[~]joke

when i don't think about it i'm fine...even when i do think about it, it's not so bad...

but, when i'm alone and i think about it...everything just mulls around in my head and festers...and i hate it.

i really just need someone today...i've spent way too much time behind the piano, alone, thinking about this...i just need a friend today...and i've just had zero human contact today...and it sucks hard. maybe that's why getting cancelled on today sucked so much...because i really needed someone today...someone i could talk to and keep my mind off of things. i've been doing alright being mr. super-independent...but still...it was one of those days that i needed people...or maybe it was one of those days where i need to figure out how to pull through this myself. there's a different way to look at it...interesting.

i'll feel better tomorrow...these days come and go. you can't have good without the bad...today wasn't a good day...today was a day that makes you appreciate the good days.