//emo//smmmashing
//song//hurricane (acoustic version) : something corporate

//party
last night, my only plan was to have fun...at the least, with my best friend at my side. in fact, i had a lot of fun at the holiday party. i brought my best friend chris, and we met up with bo and nicole, as well as bo's guest manuel. then, alison met up with us. the night was nothing short of fun.

favorite sight: janice, a manager, driving a main street vehicle.

favorite sound: bob, telling us that janice went 101 twice on stage. (in the first 45 minutes)

favorite taste: $1.75 churro

most ironic part of the evening: being spieled to, at indy, that the ride just went 101.

grand finale: purposefully running into road dividers in the parking lot, crotch first, only to realize that the evening air had coated them with dew...which, in turn, left my crotch soaked. it was a sight to behold. it was, perhaps, the biggest laugh of the evening.

//happy
i was really happy with how the night went last night. i wouldn't change how it went at all. i got to hang out with a few of my best friends and go to disneyland for the evening...can't change that.

i never got in contact with tasia...but, i don't really mind it at all. i think she was working, but...you know...i've finally calmed down from the whole tasia thing. for the past week, or so, i've been caught up in the complete infatuation of the situation. i think, if anything, it was a really good jump-start for me...having not felt what it's like to be infatuated. it helped me not take myself so seriously for a little bit...it loosened me up. but...i think i'm over the whole infatuation trip. not talking to her for a few days has given me that clarity. i'm not saying i'm giving up on the situation...but, i'm going to take less of an active role and sit back from the situation. i like it that way...i don't feel so vulnerable.

i hadn't planned on having alison join us until she text messaged me in the afternoon. i liked having alison there to meet some of my closest friends...it was cool. she fit in nicely with them, and it made the night a lot of fun. the last time that i had seen alison was, like, a couple months ago...so it was really nice to see her again. we've talked every now and again on-line and whatnot...but, it was cool. the fact is, i like the girl.

//smoking
today will be the fourth day i've gone without a smoke. it isn't too difficult...i kind of miss it when i see chris and bo smoking...but, you know what? i can handle it. i know, deep inside, i don't want to smoke anymore...waking up in the morning with that ache in my chest was not a pleasant experience...i don't want to wake up in the morning with a worse pain in my chest...that's why i'm not smoking.