//emo//mixed[as.of.yet]
//song//seeing is believing : acceptance

//winning[quitter]
as of this morning, i'm quitting this whole smoking thing. i'm not just trying to cut down anymore, i'm just gonna quit--i'm not trying to quit--i am simply quitting. i just felt like absolute crap this morning...i didn't even smoke that much yesterday, and i just felt like hell this morning. i mean, i tried taking deep breaths and struggled...and it troubled me. so, before the problem gets any worse and before i get any more addicted, i won't be smoking. aside from the fact that, since last week, my desire to smoke has been cut drastically...i know that quitting will be good for me in the long run.

this is one case where quitters do win.

the truth. now that i've put that link up, i really can't smoke anymore.

there are better things that i can do other than smoking: learn to surf; take up ballroom dancing; work out...

//shows
tonight, i shall be seeing dexter danger...a bunch of cool guys that i know through chris, in addition to acceptance. rock.

next week, i will see the rocket summer with the lyndsay diaries and watashi wa. rock.

//asian[thunder]?
the thought has crossed my mind, and i actually talked about it with erin d last night at work. i'm actually considering putting in a request to cross-train at thunder when it opens back up. i totally wouldn't mind it there, i've gotta talk to some other people first though...but i think it'd be cool.

//while@exit
saturday night...

(joshua's boat passes by)
JOSHUA: ladies and gentlemen, if you look to your right you'll see a figure in a brown hat. it's a rare species...it's a female. (nate looks down at his own chest and covers up) oh man, i'm gonna get fired.

(nicole's boat passes by)
NICOLE: alright ladies and gentlemen, if you want to see something really interesting...when i count to three, you guys have to yell "dance break" to nathaniel over there...okay, one...two...three...

GUESTS: DANCE BREAK!!

NATE: won't you charleston with me... (while doing the charleston...)

(joshua's boat passes by, again)
JOSHUA: hey ladies and gentlemen, if you look to your right you'll see indiana jones' ugly cousin...(nate throws down his hat and walks away pissed)

you know, i wouldn't mind being a jungle kid either. not at all.

//candid
there's a reason why i'm being rather candid about me liking tasia...there's no sense in spouting bs or trying to hide it, because everyone has pretty much picked up on it since day one--since before i knew it. tasia prolly picked up on the fact that i liked her from the night i met her...if not, somewhere along the timeline of last week she must've picked up on the fact i was interested. so...yeah. it's a nice sense of honesty. sometimes, i think it's the most honest thing going on at the temple. it's the first time in awhile where i haven't been so afraid to let my hair down and show my true colors. it's comforting and a little scary at the same time. i mean, i like this girl...and i don't want to scare her off either in any way...and, i'm also trying to keep myself open, so...i'm vulnerable (more than ever, it seems), but, i've still got some self-preservation things going...since, i'm not really expecting much, if anything at all.

//day.one
let today be day one of a december to remember.

[*] december milestone one : quitting cigarettes.

forty-six days until i'm not a teenager anymore.
four-hundred-nine days until i can consume alcohol...legally.