//emo//mixed

//not.just[yet]
last night at work was kinda interesting, at the least. i was emotionally all over the place and out of place the whole day. it wasn't just the argument that sica and i had (which, by the way, in retrospect, was really stupid)...it was everything. maybe it's just the fact that i've been doing nothing much else in this past week but work, no school, just work. i mean, six straight days of work kinda gets to you, especially when you wipe school out of the picture. i can't wait to get back to school, just to see some different faces for once. nothing against the indy kids or anything, but...they're the only people i've seen for the past week, and everyone needs a break once and a while.

//[still]an.issue
i spent a good two-hours worth of time at the exit position last night. basically, you stand at the end of the exit queue and not much else...there was one point in the night where it was only couples passing by: young couples, old couples, middle aged couples, all kinds of couples. it made me realize that i'm still alone this holiday season, despite the fact that all the indy kids refer to tasia as my girl. as much as i can hope it may end up that way, it hasn't happened and there aren't any expectations attatched to it...so anything can and will happen there. it just made me realize that there's still some wishing and hoping to do before i can declare this a december to remember. i mean, in the end, tasia might not be the one i end up with, or she just might, or it could be some one else, or no one else. who knows? i can't expect anything to happen when i don't know what will happen. all i can do is dream and sort myself out throughout it all.

semi-related: this is my last holiday season as a teenager. i don't wanna go on record with 19 winters spent single. lol.

//no.one.likes...
no one likes to argue. especially over stupid crap. seriously.