alright. today is another day. yesterday, i can say, i felt the best that i'd had in awhile. up to a point. i was actually enjoying myself at work...working service desk wasn't so bad. the guests weren't bad, and my supervisor was cool, and so were the other people working desk...it's a lot easier when you don't close alone. i hadn't walked out of work with a smile like that in awhile.

although, i'd been informed that i had been missing a rehearsal--that i was not told about--for this horrid play that i am in. i can't wait til the tedious little thing is over. i really detest this play...bad script, not the kind of cast that is ideal to my work ethic (i try not to sound all pompous and shit), it's not pleasant.

i have that rehearsal tonight. i'm not looking forward to it. i'm not looking forward to seeing most of the cast. i'm not looking forward to wasting away another three hours of my life, when i could be doing something more worthwhile. i'd rather just not do the damn play. it sucks...it's not quality.

doing this play attributed to my stress/depression (still trying to figure out whether it was one or the other). i'm not enjoying myself. it's like doing an elementary school play. might've been cool when i was in 6th grade...but, as a college student, it's frustrating.

i'm just hoping tonight doesn't fill me with negative energy. i'd try to make the best out of a bad situation, but how do you do that where there is nothing good about it?

nate, you need to be more positive.
this is as positive as i can get. trust me on that one.

i'm not going to dread the situation until tonight. i can make the best of my day right now...until tonight.

this would be so much simpler if i knew exactly who i could trust.