//emo//low
//song//fallen interlude : blink 182

//lines
lines have been drawn at work...battle lines.

last night was the most miserable night i had ever had at work. so much happened within the first 15-20 minutes that i walked in. i've mulled over the events of the night as a whole a lot...and i care not to discuss them at length. for the whole night i felt like i had been punched in the stomach. there were times that i wanted to throw up...so much had been going on i fought back tears. it wasn't just one thing, it was a lot of things...it wasn't just work, it was also school and the lack of sleep that i had gotten in the past few days.

i'm just doing my best to be there for carina.

all that happened last night at work is not the end of the world...whatever happens will happen and life will go on.

i don't know what to say here more than what i've said...i'm work out at as a result of everything, so, yeah.

//amidst
amidst all of this, i've been trying to figure out why i'm so drawn to carina...why i'm so drawn to being there for her. i just am...maybe it's the strange chemistry...whatever it is, i like her and being around her. i like getting to know her and everything...whatever happens won't hurt whatever bond we've started to form.

mind you...what i've got is a beginning...i have yet to find out if there's a middle and/or an end...

so, if you've been itching for details, that's what you're gonna get for the time being.

are you two dating?
we've only been on one "date," as people classify it as such. so...draw from that what you will.

do you like her?
yes.

//biased
i know that my opinions are biased right now because of my involvements with people...and this is not an easy thing to deal with.

//gotta[get.out]
more than ever do i want to transfer out of the temple and into another attraction. within the past eight/nine months i've been employed, everything just seems like it has been headed downhill...or some downward spiral. this is definitely the worst i've felt in awhile.

//up
despite all of this, i am trying to be optomistic. i am hoping for the best. it's all i can do...hoping for the worst, or expecting anything, will do me no good...i like to have faith that things happen for a reason. i think everything that has happened is all a part of something bigger...there has got to be a reason for this. i refuse to believe that there is no good in this situation.