//emo//nerved
//song//such great heights : the postal service

//nerves
i audition in an hour...i'm kinda prepared...kinda nervous...carina, a new hire, also had auditions today...we told each other break a leg...well, i hope we both do well. i'm not expecting to get cast in anything...i'm just expecting to get noticed for a few minutes by the directors, then try out for a few one-acts next semester. that's how it goes.

auditioning is such an unreal thing...i shouldn't be nervous...i either fit a part, or i don't...being 5'5" and filipino, there aren't a lot parts out for me. that's reality...but, hey, might as well die trying.

//gotta[do]
i need to go out this week...i think i will. i'll get something together with someone...aside from the rocket summer show this week...i'd like to go out and get to know a girl, for fun...a nice recreational date.

//julie
i miss julie. i remember this one night in the middle of last summer where, on a complete whim, i decided that julie was not going to stay home after work...but rather, we'd hang out...it was a fun night. we chilled at johnny rocket's at the spectrum, had shakes/malts and fries...then went and saw matrix reloaded. it was a fun night. can't wait 'til she comes back down here.

//thursday
i asked carina if she wanted to see a play this thursday, and she seemed willing...except, i just found out today that play doesn't have a thursday show...although, another play does...so, we'll see. i just met her yesterday...she seems cool. i wouldn't mind hanging out with her and getting to know her outside of work. we've got that common ground as triple threat actors. it's cool stuff. again i say, we'll figure it out...i'm not in a rush...i'm just trying to survive this week right now and have some fun in the meantime if it can happen. (fingers crossed, hoping for the best)

//oh[hell]
one more thing...we've had these demonstrators on campus...these really annoying guys...assholes really, screaming that everyone's going to hell...you need jesus...yadda... now, i have nothing against evangelism and the like as long as it's done in a courteous manner...but, when you're yelling at people and berating everyone around you for being heathens, you're taking it to another level. well, i'm passing by them with classmates, and they're screaming they're heads off, and i'm just yelling:

for the love of jesus, can i just have one goddamned conversation without having someone interrupt the hell out of it. goddamnit, just let me have my conversation. jesus christ.

i'm sorry...as sacriligious as my speech was, i think jesus himself would be embarrassed by the behavior of these radicals. i was waiting for bill o'reilly to show up and give his trademark shut up to these guys.

i pass by these guys, and then i say to a random instructor: these guys are scaring the jesus out of me...and random instructor was all like: seriously, they make me embarrassed to be a christian.

honestly...this isn't the most productive way to get your message across--don't threaten eternal damnation, that just makes this whole religion thing creepy and hard to celebrate...really.