//mood//excited+fungry

//apathy
1: lack of feeling or emotion.
2: lack of interest or concern.

it's such a small part of me. there's too much going on right now for me to care. i'm unshaken and it feels good.

//touchdown
julie comes home today. i thought i was gonna pick her up...lack of communication on both our parts leads me to believe otherwise.

at least that's what i'll say out loud.

//scene
i'm really excited about my scene today in acting...i actually put a lot of thought into this, even if it's only a small thing...i think it's gonna be really good. there's a lot of dramatic potential...we'll see once we get it done. it'll be grreat!

//awards
i dunno if i'm gonna go to the mouscars tonight...now that i've said it, i know that i'll prolly get a call or a message telling me that i have to go. it won't be so bad...i just have qualms about immersing myself in the drama of indy when i don't necessarily have to. too much potential drama...which isn't necessarily bad, per se, but it's just something that i don't feel is necessary for me to dive into.

//the.drama
to be honest, i love like everybody (except for crazy miss "i have a million safeties") at indy, regardless of whether they like me back--this would explain why i get concerned about some people, and mask it with content. but seriously, i hate negativity...there is way too much negativity surrounding the different indy cliques...it reminds me way too much of my high school drama department...and well, negativity is extremely contagious...and, i don't know if i really want to be around it...that's why i like goofing off at work, and focusing on my job...everybody gets so caught up in the drama at work that we lost sight of what's really important...we lose track of the fact that we're all human and that things will be said, people will be misunderstood, and not everyone's going to be liked. there's just too much crap in the air these days.

whatever happened to respect?

there's too much duplicity around there.

//duplicity
contradictory doubleness of thought, speech, or action; especially: the belying of one's true intentions by deceptive words or action.

//happy
i'm incredible today. you should be incredible too.

for those of you enveloped in negativity...there is so much to be positive about. it's so easy to focus on the negative...the i don't have's...when the truth is, you've got a lot to be thankful for. we're raised to want in a voracious way...that's what we're taught: we have a lot, we don't have enough. we forget the people do care about us. we forget about the priveleges we have. our minds are so set on material goods that these goods really do us little good. people have started to become possessions...and that makes us no better than slave drivers if that's true. just think positive for once...a lot of times it doesn't seem that easy, but it is just as contagious as the opposite.

you're not ugly, you're beautiful.
you're not stupid, you're uniquely insightful.
you're not worthless, you're more than you think.

but, you might be a loser...and i can't help you!!!

just kidding.