//mood//awesome.possums (we can ignore the asterisks for awhile)

//no.questions.asked
i've been feeling really good lately. i don't know why. i don't really care to know why. i think i've chosen to feel good. and that's all i choo-choo-choose to say about that, because i don't want to over-think anything right now.

//reasons.for[excitement]
so i'm supposed to chill with lauren this late friday night, and i'm honestly quite excited for it...and i'll tell you why.

it's kinda like a chance to re-do things in high school that i wish that i had done. she was a girl that i wouldn't have minded to have gotten to know (for obvious reasons: i thought she was cute, and the few times that i talked to her, i found her to be nice and intelligent). but, because of a lack of opportunity, and a lack of self-confidence (that manifested itself in utter shyness) i never got to know her.

now that i've been given the opportunity, i've decided to take the chance by the reins and run with it.

it's not exactly like high school though, i'm not exactly the same person i was then, i'm no longer as shy as i used to be, and am quite more pro-active in taking action toward talking to those i am attracted too; and she no longer wears bangs (and in turn, looks cuter).

so, yeah. i'm excited to chill with her. it's sort of a retribution for who i have grown to be in the past year or so, from who i used to be. it'll be fun to get to know her, and whatever.

she could have cancelled on me, since she's having dinner that night with tunde (i wonder how he has been)--but, she really wanted to hang out with me on friday.

i know i'm over-thinking it...and i'm just trying to let it be what it is, really...a couple people hanging out, getting to know eachother, on a friday night...but, whatever. i just want to have fun and that excites me.

maybe it'll be fun, maybe it'll be disappointing...i really don't know.

over-analyzing stuff usually gets me in trouble, so i'm gonna shut-up now, for my own good.

geez i'm a dork.

//okay...now
i'm in the school library...and some random porn pops up on the screen...kinda weird and embarrassing...

//back.to.my.point
there were a lot of people in high school that i would have liked to have gotten to know, and never did because i was not confident in who i was...and now i'm getting a chance to do so with one of those people...and it feels nice.

there.

now i'll drop it.

//change
too much time passes by...and i'll spend too much of my life sleeping: getting rest for the next day.

if i spend so much of my life sleeping, then i need to make the day worth all the rest.