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//an((entry))_about*my*crotch...and.everyone_else's((crotches))
okay...um...i don't know, maybe this is just me...but...

i'm wearing new pants, because most of the pants i own are going to be new pants (thanks to the fact that i ruined all my old pants).

but, yeah...i'm walking from my class that i just got out of, and i notice that the crotch of my pants are bulging out (and, no, i wasn't excited)...and i'm wondering, great...it must be the pants, because it isn't me.

so, my natural instinct is to wonder if anyone else has this problem with their pants...so, i'm walking through campus staring at everyone's pants...more distinctly: everyone's crotches, unknowing of the fact that i'm staring at crotches, not pants...

so...in case people start thinking i'm some sick bastard that gets his ya-yas from staring at peoples' crotches, that is so not true...i've just got a crotch problem of my own.

i'm really becoming a fucked-up person.

i woke up this morning with a bad hangover and my penis was missing again. this happens all the time; it's detachable.
--king missile : detachable penis
...i just thought this lyric was suited to cap an entry about crotches.

//think.ing_like*a.guy
i was just wondering when i stopped thinking like romantic, sensitive nate, and started thinking like a guy.

the thing is, as guilty as i feel about the whole thing...i kinda don't want to turn back...

i've always been the romantic and sensitive nate, but all that got me was a whole lot of singleness and heartbreak...now, i'm thinking like a guy, who isn't longing for any real commitment and just wants to fool around and play the field...

...and this was so not me a few months ago.

so...i'm just wondering when this whole change occured...because, now that i'm overanalyzing this like i overanalyze everything else, it has become that much more interesting.

when did i start becoming an asshole-guy?
when will i stop being an asshole-guy with feelings and just be the asshole?

it's weird...i'm kinda stuck in the middle of being the guy who thinks about others and their feelings and being the guy who is really a guy...it's like i'm slowly throwing sensitivity out the window, but, i'm kinda not.

interesting.

i think i will always be my most interesting subject of analyzation...because i'm a dork.

it's like i've been in touch with my feminine side all my life, and i've all of a sudden become masculine...it's really weird, but nice, kinda.

i see you baby shakin' that ass.
shakin' that ass.
shakin' that ass.
--groove armada : i see you baby
...leave it to dance music to make the insightful lyrics.