//w.here//over here...throwing peanuts at unsuspecting victims
//moo.d//half-decent...half-worried...half-crazy...that's three-halves, that's why i'm more than a man.
//song_in_h.ead//like a stone_by_audioslave
//wh.y//because i was watching mtv and it was the last song on before i left home.

//if_i/am-((loo.king))_f.or*[f.un]
sara is really cool...she seems really excited that i'm going to her prom with her...and we're going to be going out this friday...and that's cool...i'm excited too...

but...

(with me, there's always the but)

i think that there's a problem with me...maybe i'm just looking to far into this...i don't know...

i'm still looking to keep my options open and everything...

i think she's genuinely interested in something serious with me, while i'm not interested in seriousness...at least not yet.

i don't want to be insensitive or anything...but...hey, i could be looking to far into something that is just in my head...

maybe that male bug that makes you afraid of commitment has finally spawned within me...

i just don't think i'm sold on getting into a commital-like relationship with anyone now-a-days...not yet...not now...
(ughh...i couldn't think of a different word...sold seems like such a cheapeningly insensitive word).

but, you know what?

i think we'll just have mad fun on friday...because i'll be disappearing within the next few weeks, and we probably won't be able to see eachother again until prom...

by then, i'll have time to think...but, i'll probably still be thinking by the time prom rolls around...since this friday will be our first date, like, ever.

i don't know...i'll talk to her about this.

i never thought i'd be one of those jerks that women complain about.

i think it's worse to be a jerk who has the emotional capacity to feel guilt.

but...screw the guilt for now, i never get to have fun with women...now i have this chance...i'm just going to try to push thoughts to the side and let this ride for the moment. i'm gonna have fun for once.

dance your cares away *clap clap*
save worries for another day.
let the music play *clap clap*
down in fraggle rock.
--fraggle rock : allister does an awesome cover of it!!!