//lo.ca.tion//dreamland...
//moo.d//i don't care
//stat.us//rock*
//cur.rent.ly_play.ing//rock_star : n-e-r-d

//i_am_a_luck.y_[one]
i think that i'm pretty damn lucky that the things that stress about in my life are limited to these:
1//[single]dom (i.e. the lack of a dating situation, women)
2//will_i_get_[my]_pay.check*soon??
3//be.ing_a_[minority]_and_asp.i.ring_for_a_ca.reer_in_en.ter.tain.ment
4//when_will_i_(see)_my_friends_[next]?

pretty much...if i take a step outside of myself, i see a somewhat easy, possibly shallow, life...at least in comparison to what some of my friends and colleagues have going on...the deepest things that i have concern with in my life are the career goals and the relationship motives...which everyone else has concerning their own lives.

i mean...i've decided to stay home for college...if i'd gone anywhere different, i don't know how different the depth of my life would be, what changes i've gone through...i've changed a great deal...

maybe i just deal with change well...i don't know...maybe i just don't deal with it.

i don't know...i don't even know where to go with this topic...all i know is that i am very fortunate to have the life that i have...very fortunate to deal with what little stresses i have...

i don't know if it makes me any less of a person to not deal with so much adversity, or adversity on a smaller degree...i don't even know what the outcome will be...but, all i know is that i'm lucky right now.

i don't know how i've gotten so lucky...i don't know how i get through every day...i just do, and that's a blessing.

there are a lot of liberties in [my] own life that i take for granted, and i'm discovering them little-by-little everyday.

i wish i could write a book on how i do it everyday...and deal with the breakdowns, and build-back up with lightning resilience...but, i just don't know how...i have no method...

if everyone in the world could have the life i have, it'd be a pretty content world...and you could look back at the bumps in the road and say that really wasn't so big.

...i don't know...i've just recently felt like i am a really strong person...

...i wish that i could share that strength with others, and those who need it more.

//[screw]_the_sys.tem:(burn)-the_cult.ur.al_rule.book
i, like many other americans, have ingratiated myself into a society with several socio-cultural rules...and i don't think a lot of these rules make sense. the art of conversation has become mindless and a rarely excercised practice among families and strangers. random acts of kindness now convey a sense of weirdness, instead of genuine nourishment and care. bad news has become mainstream, while good news has a sort of shock value.

this shall serve as my prelude to my anthropology assignment...i like it, so i encourage everyone to do this as well:
break a cultural rule (keep it legal)...de-familiarize the familiar and become aware of the things normally taken for granted.

after doing so...observe the outcome, and the reactions.

one example would be offering to pay more than the given price at a supermarket.

i think one source of the few frustrations in my life is that the cultural rules we live by have made me into a hermit...because it is odd to engage in conversation, it is odd to pass a warm smile toward a random person...

is it really that odd, really that offensive to be approached by a kind person??

//oh...the_(sweet)pleas.ure_of_[random]_not.a.tion
[~]hi t!ff...long time, no talk! miss you! hope you're doing well!

[~]yo mig!...hang in there...i'm there for you, even if that's all i can do.

[~]jesus saves!...free mumia!

[~]i just bought something corporate's ready...break cd on ebay and i'm excited about that.

[~]to my orange county peeps: what is cracking?

[~]hello canada.

[~]go see better luck tomorrow...it's not just that asian movie.

[~]damn the man.

[~]the closing lyrics for this day just kinda fit with what i've been feeling lately...rock on everyone.

shake down you make me break
for goodness sake i think i'm on the edge
of something new with you.
--something corporate : the formal weather pattern (hurricane)