//mood//willing.to.do.anything.anything.anything

//good.times
i need money. thursday is pay-day...and today's only monday.

i don't want to use my debit card, besides, i've only got fifteen-dollars in checking. other wise i only have a whopping two dollars and twenty cents.

luckily, at work, all i usually have is a smuckers uncrustables pbj sandwich and drink, since it's cheap and satisfying.

//numbing.the.sore
i miss talking to nikki, it has been awhile since we talked...the last time we talked was a week ago when we'd decided to not date anymore. but, we saw eachother at work yesterday, but didn't get any chances to really converse. but, we'll call eachother sometime, so we promised. we are still friends. and i can pretend not to care. it'll stop hurting eventually, like everything else does.

i mean, the fact that annie won't talk to me stopped hurting. i don't know exactly when, but it did.

//[screw.you]...but.i've_got*closure
fun times.

so, i was talking, and i was supposed to, apparently, get an invite to come back and do my old high school choir show and make a cameo appeareance. but, annie was against this...so, i didn't get the invitation.

this really pisses me off.

but, upon hearing this news, it serves as closure.

no longer will i have to deal with that little voice inside me that always asked what if you'd crawled back? what if you'd stayed?

but, after this crap...i don't care about her anymore.

this news=bridge----->now i'm over it.

it'll be nice to see you gone. have fun at ucla being fake to more people. bitch.

//friends
work is a good place to make friends. as is school.

i need to find a good place to find a good woman.

i haven't felt the way, i feel today
in so long it's hard for me to specify
i'm beginning to notice
how much this feels like a waking limb
pins and needles, nice to know you
good-byyyyyyyyyye, nice to know you
to know...you
--incubus : nice to know you