//w.here//some.where_in_the((sunlight))
//m.ood//guilt+melancholy_but.it.doesn't.matter_i'm.fine
//song.in.head//remember to breathe : dashboard confessional
//after.thought//shit, i've been listening to a lot of dashboard lately.

//not.any_better
this whole thing hasn't gotten any better...i'd like to say it hasn't gotten any worse--to be truthful, there hasn't been any catalyst for things getting worse--but, i guess time could be a catalyst, since it only gets worse the longer it goes. as much as i'd like to talk to her about it, i don't.

i kinda just want to tell her don't get so excited over me...but, i know that she is already...and that's what sucks. i don't like letting people down.

i already feel like people don't expect much out of me, so when people put their faith in me, it's really important--but right now, i don't want her to put her faith in me, because i want to really be the fuck-around-kind-of-guy. i don't want to be held in one place at the moment.

i don't know when i'll want to be held in one place...but...not right now. i think i'll want to settle down when i feel i've found someone i could sink my teeth into...unfortunately, it's not her. i don't know if it will be her at anytime soon...but, i don't want her to start thinking it either...but i think she already has.

there's nothing i love more than to see people excited...that brings me a good feeling: to see people happy about whatever. unfortunately, i'm in a position where i have to take that away--and it sucks.

ohhh well...world keeps on turning, and i'll eventually have to face the music.

maybe i should take harmony's advice and tell sara to have a backup-prom-date on hand...it would suck to tell her that...

//sink_my(teeth)
i think the only thing that could stop me from this sinking-ship of becoming one of those typical-guy-types is finding someone that would totally contradict my mindset right now: someone i could sink my teeth into...someone who would make me want to dive in head-first...but...things like that don't happen to me...seriously. they don't.

right now, i want life to be fun, and i want to be happy...that's priority right now...and, being settled into a relationship that will end isn't going to bring me happiness...because i'm not into crashing into failure right now.

so...to sink-my-teeth or to fuck-around? i'm gonna fuck-around because that's all that i'll be able to do, because the sink-my-teeth girl never comes around.

i'm really shallow. i'm young though...damnit, i'm young.

//not.a.kid
everywhere i go i feel like i'm the youngest guy around--funny, because i used to feel like the oldest guy in the room all the time. i think it's because i stopped taking myself so damn seriously--kinda.

okay, fine, once i stop over-analyzing every single detail in my life, then i'll be able to say i've stopped taking myself so seriously. but, yeah, i take myself less seriously now...and it's fun this way.

i'm not a kid anymore, but i actually feel young for once in my life...and you know what, despite whatever tribulations it may bring, it's a shit-load of fun right now.

i'm gonna have you naked by the end of this song
--justin timberlake : rock your body
...jeez, pop-music lyrics just express things that are so hard to put into words in real-life.