where//gramma's.crib
feel//decent+delicious...untasted
music//fall:something corporate
wear//faded.jeans / white.khaki.vans / light.blue.hollister.tee / glasses

i felt like a doofus yesterday...i had this big-ass entry, and instead of pressing the post and publish button, i hit sign out...so...oh well.

as much of a television junkie i may be, it's also really depressing to flip the channels.

it's really depressing to continually see this high terror alert shit all the time, and see how paranoid so much of america is acting. if our nation is that scared, then the terrorists are winning. they want us to be afraid of them...and we are giving into the fear.

another thing that pissed me off, one thing that always pisses me off: jerry falwell. people like him are the reason that i am so reticent to say that i am a christian. he disgusts me. he acts like he speaks for all americans and christians. normally, i will try to come to an understanding of conservative views, but his extremist-conservative views are so insensitive and reviling that i cannot stand the man at all. he's self-rightousness makes me nauseus...he thinks that because he totes the holy book, that it automatically makes him correct. anyways...he was defending bush and the war effort, and kept on retaliating to the anti-war people with well, you didn't say that when clinton was in office. i hate that re-buff...it is the most spineless thing i hear from stubborn right-wing extremists.

i'm going to go ahead an offend some people, but, i'm anti-war. i'm for the inspections, and i am also for the removal for saddam hussein...you can't be against something without standing up for something...i believe in diplomacy.

everything was the same in our relations with iraq in the past fifteen years...why now do we deal with iraq this way? why now are we waging another war? is oil worth the lives that are going to be spent on this war?

look, the people who say that being anti-war is being anti-american are stupid...it's bullshit. i am just as american as the next person. i am free to think and feel the way i do...american freedom facilitates me to be against the war effort. do not call me un-american.

i don't want to talk about the war anymore...it's quite depressing...and i'm actually in a good mood.

i don't know what else to talk about...

i really need a girl...it was just depressing to be out last night, hanging out at the movies...my buddies were awesome company...but, i kept on feeling so utterly hopeless and single with all the couples and beautiful girls all around...i'm tired of feeling so damn hopeless. i don't feel sexy or attractive at all, no matter what i do...i hate it. if i felt attractive, or was taller, or something...that'd be great. i mean...no one ever says look at the personality on that guy...ooh sexy. i'm lacking in the looks department...at least i feel that way. ugh...

i don't know what's making me happy today, but, whatever...might as well roll with it.

i'd like to have a say on the income tax
don't wanna help build bombs and that's the facts
-- beastie boys : alive