//mood//fine
//song//head on collision (acoustic version) : new found glory

//getting.all[emo]
holy crap...i got home last night and hammered out music on the piano and worked on some songs...i started working on your own eulogy...then i played coldplay's the scientist...then i started another song...

the concept of the new song that i'm working on is that it's a letter to someone who just moved away...to put it bluntly, a letter to julie. jeez...the more i think about it, the more i miss her. i didn't realize how much that i missed her until i called her last week. then i started writing the song last night, and i missed her more...

i don't know...writing the song made me realize that she was probably the glue holding the friendship between jessica and me together...

as i sit and wonder what the hell went wrong with my friendship with jessica and try to figure out the reasons...i also end up caring less...because at the same time i realize that i've got other friends that care about me.

one of the last people that i thought that i'd be keeping in touch with is julie...but, things have worked out differently...i miss her a lot.

indy really isn't the same without her.

this will be a summer collage
of words meant to massage
an aching heart filled with photographs
that misses all the laughs.

the weird thing is that i started the song with the full intention of writing a happy song...and it ends up with me kinda tearing up...

it just kinda makes me realize that summer is over...when julie left, that's when the end of summer began.

//bored
having a bunch of days off and nothing else to do really kinda takes its toll on you...i'm actually kinda looking forward to school tomorrow...even if i've got that damned theatrical make-up class...but man, i'm just looking for something to do that won't cost me too much money.

//more.good[byes]
jeez...last night was karen w's last night at work...and a couple nights before was stephani e's last night at indy...i don't think i can take too many more good-byes...

//drive.around
lately...i've just wanted to drive around...without a purpose...without a destination...i just want to drive around.

goodbye summer.

when you realize all that you've gained
will it be worth all you've lost?
and when you realize you're not the same
this sudden change came at what cost?
--yet another song i'm working on