//mood//smashing
//song//hands.down : dashboard.confessional

//gramma
my grandmother is in the hospital...she's recovering from surgery. if y'all could place her in your prayers and/or thoughts, please do. it would mean a lot to me.

i just got off the phone with her from her hospital bed...she sounded miserable...but she said that she was recovering. i hope that she doesn't have to spend her birthday there...i really hope so.

//sometimes.you.feel.like.a...
...big freaking d-o-r-k. yesterday was one of those times.

that's all i'm going to say about that, because i promised that i'd let it go...and kristen swears that i'm not a dork because of yesterday.

actually, our outing yesterday was a lot of fun, even though i dwelled on my dorkiness way too much.

we bought our homegirl, sica, ice cream from the beloved gibson girl...it is orgasmically wonderful ice cream.

i brought her home early because she was tired, and she needed to get up early.

it was a fun afternoon/evening, and we had good conversations...i was in the mood for talking about stuff, among other things, so it was cool (aside from feeling like a L7 weenie the whole time).

kristen is such a sweetie...i just need to lighten up on myself more often.

//that.damned.song
i just thought it was cool, because right after i stepped in my car from dropping her off at her house i'd heard the song that has been stuck in my head for weeks: hands down...dude, that song is so infectious. it's a bit of irony, and a whole lot of cool.

//coming.soon
soon enough, very soon...i'm gonna be meeting a couple of kristen's best friends, as well as her father. on the one hand, i'm kinda nervous because i want them to like me...but, on the other hand, i can't make them like me--i can only be myself, so...i just need to chill with that. it'll be fine.

//almost.over!
my english class ends next week...and i'm excited about it. i wish all my classes could just be five weeks long. the last essay will about something that i've been getting increasingly good at: self-reflection. right now, the prewrite assignment is to get three people who know you best to answer questions about yourself (i.e. what are this person's best qualities? how have they impacted your life? etc.,...)

needless to say, i am excited about this assignment...and it being the last assignment, that just adds to the fun.

i've been so good this week, i've been coming to class on time!

//california.recall
okay...this has not been a good week for the image of california...i mean, we've got a show like the oc generalizing what it's like to live in up-scale so.cal...and now we've got this circus of a recall election with over 500 candidates including larry flynt, the terminator/kindergarten cop/ah-nold, and gary coleman...um...right...i love california and all...but, jeez-louise people, come on!

her: i'm going to study abroad.
me: i'd like to study abroad too...i'd like to study a few broads.
*smack!*
me: ow! okay, fine. i'd just like to study one broad.
*smack!*
--the sound of me making lame jokes and putting my foot in my mouth.