i've never felt more lonely in my life.

with your parents out of town.
when you've realized the geek you are, and how hopeless you are.
when you've realized how impossible it is for you to find a girl that's as interested in you as your are in her.
when the only noises in your house are the tap-tap of the keyboard and the television.
when you've come home after a shitty day at work.
after you've dealt with a skin-head family at the return desk.
when you've realized you'll just be the inevitable friend.
when things stop looking up when they couldn't get deeper down.

yeah...that's when you start feeling really lonely and depressed...but there's always tomorrow, right? another shitty day to look forward to, right?

God, i wish i had someone right now. right now.

there's a void inside of me. a big, dark, void.

i've been living in disillusionment. i've been fooling myself that i'm this great person capable of great things...but, shit...where am i right now? who am i right now?

a big fat no one...if anyone: your lovable _{(in that non-intimate way)} geek friend.

what the hell is wrong with me?