mood//really.good.in.the.hood
music.currently.playing//funk.mix

so...yeah...i go to class, and it turns out that class was cancelled! i was pretty psyched...a little let down because i'm low on gas and i came to school for, essentially, no reason...but, i made the best of it. i spent what would have been class time getting to know a few of my other classmates...we just sat around eating donuts talking about stuff in the music lounge, and it was fun, really fun. it was enjoyable...i wish that i talked more, i stayed relatively silent the whole time, but, i didn't know what to say to jump in...but, whatever...it was really cool just hanging out with them.

anyways...yeah...since i'm almost broke and almost out of gas, i don't think i'll be doing much at all in the next week or so...i really need money...at least i get paid tomorrow...which might as well be monday...damnit.

oh...and i'm feeling damn good.

you know, considering the implications...it may very well be a bad thing to think of the words Goddamnit when you think of work, especially when you work for a christian non-profit organization, right? hmm...

i really don't know if i'm meant to be working for who i am working for. they see me for something that i don't see myself as. i'm guessing that whatever they see in me may very well exist, but, i don't know. my life has very much of a secular pull, i'm a worldly person, with my own spiritual beliefs...but then there's my company's spirituality, and, well...i end up saying shit over and over again in my head until i'm done with work. it's like i'm from a completely different world...and i don't want to be brainwashed or anything, but i feel like that's what they're going to end up trying to do to me. i am more than willing to put my trust in the Lord, but not in my boss...so...that's where my conflict is...does God really want me at this job?

we'll find out once i start teaching hip-hop...'cause i need the money. i'd better be getting that per student addition...i'll be uber-pissed if i don't. i just don't trust my boss.