weekend full of closure...not really, but it's kinda cool to think of it that way...well, not really. whatever.

but, yeah. after avoiding jenn for about a month and a half, i was posed with a situation where i could no longer avoid her: she approached me. after the words oh, shit popped into my head, i realized that i had to stop being a little kid about this, and actually talk to her. i told her that things got weird after she made a big deal out of our dating for one month, and how it just got weird. i also apologized for avoiding her for so long...as well as telling her that a relationship like what she was wanting isn't what i'm looking for...(truth: a relationship like that is not what i'm looking for with her. i'm an asshole, huh?). but, yeah. i really didn't like her like that, she was cool to hang out with, but...i couldn't be committed to her like she was to me...sad, but true.

it's just really weird because i'm usually the one that is in her position, where i've fallen way too hard for the other person...it was really weird being in the position where i feel unable to reciprocate what she feels for me...but, hey, what can you do? can't avoid the other person forever. the thing is, i do feel bad about it...but...on the other hand, i don't...

there's just a whole lot of weirdness that comes with a situation like the aforementioned.

new topic.

it was pretty cool talking to barbara on the phone saturday night. we hadn't talked in awhile...it was a nice catch-up thing. it was really funny hearing about the stuff that's going on with the drama kids...drama...same as usual. i'll leave it at that. i'm going to see their fall production on saturday.

i'd feel like i'm under a lot of pressure if i were in their production. they're doing the diary of anne frank. it's not a comedy, so it may not get the responses that it deserves, even if it's done well. but, also, it's a play that you absolutely cannot screw-up...because if you do, it's like you're stepping on the graves of those the play is dedicated...it just seems like shaky ground for a high school drama department to perform on...but, i think they have the potential to pull it off...so, i'll just have to see on saturday, i think...maybe friday.

yeah, aside from that...i sat alone on my ass in my house, dateless and pathetic on saturday night.

i was quite disappointed in that...i wanted to go out...but there wasn't anyone to go out with...so, i just stayed in and watched the importance of being earnest on dvd and played tiger woods pga tour 2003 on the ps2...like a geek.

but, sunday night proved to be not so bad...work was decent...and i getting together with natalie isn't an impossibilty...so, it's all good...and sarah decided to call me, and we talked for like, five minutes. so, it's all good.

one thing: don't hate me because i can't stand all the harry potter hype. i mean, it's just not for me...if it's your thing, that's cool...but, really, i could care less about the "harry potter shit" as i think i referred to it a few times this weekend...but yeah...i could really care less, but if you like it, it's cool...yeah.